Monday, September 21, 2009


Does anyone have the address of Summer? I need to send it a "Thank You" card.

For the first time in my life, I don't want summer to end. I have intensely disliked summer my whole life, but this summer has been different. Everything changed this summer. I will never forget my old boss, Vic, (at my birthday party at Ottavio's, his restaurant that was about to close forever) asking to see me do the "balla da luna" or "Moonwalk" for him. To hear it in Italian made it all seem so new for some reason. And the sound of the helicopters and the sound of my feet running on the pavement and the sound of my own voice learning how to pray...and the sound of Stevie Wonder...singing. And for the first time in my life, understanding what "Faithing" means.
This illness has made me see life as if for the first time. There were times this summer, when I had the strength to walk at sunset, when it was so bewilderingly beautiful, that I felt like a person who had died, but that Heavenly Father, in His mercy, had let come back to see this earth- one more time...and that, was when Arcturus looked at me.
Truly, I did not know what beauty was till this year, what it really means for something to be beautiful.
It is amazing what Heavenly Father allows a person to learn sometimes, out of faith in US.
The Autumnal Equinox happens at 5:18 PM tomorrow, so I have a little over 24 hours to keep learning what this summer came to teach me...94 days of curriculum that I never dreamt could have been mine.
Then I will have to convince my heart to Fall...
What light will there be in Autumn?

1 comment:

thymetrees said...

Just a quick hi to see how you're doing...